Should I??!!

Why? That would be the first question I asked myself. In life, when you are surrounded by people which are much much older than you....We have to give way and let it be...but there will be another question...until when?....Lately I really felt like I've been back stabbed by persons that I trust. I just can't believe it's happening to me...after all that we've been through together for the last years....It just don't make sense....probably..maybe ....because there are new friends around...or maybe it was just me being emotional and having those unthoughtful thoughts...just like what one of my friend here in Muscat said, don't let the negative thinking overcome you...isshh..dah macam nak jadi jedi dlm starwars lah plak....anyway....that's what I felt right now...For what I know ,I will always treasure every moment that we had before and I still thought her as one of my dear friend....

What else can we ask in a friendship that able to last for a long time...definitely sincerity of the heart and able to understand one another. I think the last part was not in me....as I just could not understand any of my friends complex behavior. Or should I? Let that question lingers in my head but as far as I know I love all my friends...no matter how they are....or...how complex can they be.

I won't let these experience past me without me knowing what is going on,nonetheless, let it be a secret for oneself to know.... I have enough things to ponder in life....with my hubby who wants to get slim a.s.a.p.( I wonder...) with my kids still struggling to recognize letters and myself....how to be a better me. Let any other things fall to the side....my priority is still my family..once you tarnish that grace....you are in war dude....Definitely in life, you got to have a double face or maybe three or four or more...that is what I learned the most..in order to please one feelings....so don't tell me not to be a hypocrite because for what I know every one is living under it...nor saying being a plastic..as every each of us is a plastic.....Again the question pop up....shouldI be one of it? Hmmm......